Its never a fair deal

  What are you waiting for?Is it me on your mind? Is it someone else? There are others I'm sure, that are far better in every aspect. Better looking, better listeners, better partners. But to say I regret becoming who I am couldn't be farther from the truth. I am my past, I am my experiences, my laughs, my tears. I am everyone I ever met. I am so many things. So take me the way I am, or don't take me at all.

Perceptions

  Worries. They plague me, follow me to the darkest corners of my consciousness. What will I do if I fail to achieve my goals?What will happen if I miscarry my objectives . Will I be strong enough to cope with reality, with the guilt that haunts me?
   Maybe its all a matter of perception. Perhaps victory should be the only option. Why have an alternative?
All my life we've made plans for the future. Plans that supposedly would lead us to a better place, but instead just dislocated us even more from what little roots we already possessed. Eventually I just lost hope on cogitating  plans, in order to spare myself the disappointment.

   Recently, something has materialized in me. Something new,fresh. A will. A craving to succeed, to grasp every single dream  I have, to stay with that special person that calms my heart. Were all broken people, imperfect and ignorant. Its how willing we are to admit our imperfections and how much we drive ourselves to correct them, that separates us from the rest. 

Endless conversations

   What will she think  of me,when every single secret is out? What will she want from me, when she can predict every single date we go on? Am I a simple hour-glass, slowly ceasing with time? Love is trusting that person with your deepest feelings, trusting them with everything that makes "you", you. Why is it worth it?Why trust?Why have eight hour conversations and tell them every aspect of your short lived life. Maybe you feel the need to let out, let go of some of the past that haunts you . Or maybe sharing helps heal some of the old wounds that still sting late at night when your mind is empty. Ill walk the infinite road, reveal my most secretive layers and hope for the best. Afinal, sou apenas humano,não?